It’s My Birthday

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We lost my Dad last May 25th, 2017 on my Birthday.

He also could not really talk much and I had gone to TN to see my son and my grand-babies. Thinking I would be there for 3 months and it turned into 5 as our van died. But way before we came home to New York, mom called to say Dad wasn’t doing good and could we come home. I had been calling him daily, sometimes a couple times a day. He could talk then… I would always say ” I Love you ” and he would say ” I Love you too “.

I think that is the hardest part for them and for us

( when they cannot tell us what they want to say)

On May 23rd My oldest son Wesley, my youngest son Daniel and I arrived back in New York and on the 24th we went to see my Dad. He couldn’t talk to us or get the right words out. This was very hard for my son Wesley and I, at one point Wes, said he was going outside, seeing his grandfather unable to talk or respond to anything he said was hard. There are so many days that I wish that the hospital had not taken him off the meds he was on, it allowed the infection to spread faster and affect his mind and ability to talk with us.  I wanted so much to hear my fathers thoughts and to hear him say I love you one last time.

All my siblings were there, we took turns visiting him and at one point I think we were all in there in his room. Dad tried to talk, tried to tell us things but not much was audible. I hovered around his bedside and talked to him, he would follow me the whole time with his eyes and each time I would stop near his side or at the end of his bed, he would look at me and say ” Hey “…. and I would ask him what he wanted, ask him if he wanted a drink and he would shake his head no… and I would tell him that I loved him…..  At one point I was standing at the foot of his bed, thinking we would never get a chance to hear his thoughts again or know what he thought of us.

My son Daniel 9 at the time was there and had said Hi to Dad. Dad and Dan would sit and watch TV and talk weekly on our proverbial pizza night at home before we went to TN.

But that day in the hospital, though none of us could understand Dad much and he was very weak and not moving a lot….. out of nowhere, Daddy lifted his hands way up in the air and Literally hollered out ” Daniel ” and everyone went silent and cheered… Daniel was like What? To me, it was a spiritual thing and a way of Dad letting me and Daniel know that we were important to him. That he loved us and wanted Daniel to know that. It was the most loving thing that he was able to do. It will forever be in my heart, that he loved my son so much that he mustered the strength and hollered his name, lifting his hands high in the air…. It was akin to reading about Aaron holding up Moses hands in the bible.

You know I can only hope and pray that before I pass from life to eternal life that I pass on to my kids my belief and faith in our Lord Jesus. To instill in them the desire to serve the Lord, like my Dad did with me. Dad and I were very close all my life…

On my Birthday it was raining and I was in my moms’ kitchen sitting by the window, thinking about my Dad. My siblings all wandering through the house. I prayed a prayer… Lord if it is your will even this day, my Birthday wish is that Dad would go home to glory and be with you and no longer in pain. and literally not more then 3 minutes later my birthday wish came true and my mom called to say that he was gone home to heaven. She had turned around to get something, heard him take a breath and turned back and he was gone. Life is but a vapor and we need to cherish those we love….. Children Obey your parents…..Honor thy Father and thy Mother…

From my lips to God’s ear… In a moment of time…

God answered my prayer

My birthday wish… came true…

( I have never had the Lord answer prayer that fast, but that day He did ! )

That was a year ago today…  I was 53 and Daddy was 76…

Today, I am 54…  I am still missing my Dad so very much…

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Choose Joy: 3-Minute Devotions for Women Compiled by Barbour Staff

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Got 3 minutes to spare? You’ll find the spiritual pick-me-up you need in Choose Joy: 3-Minute Devotions for Women. Written especially the twenty-first-century woman, this delightful devotional packs a powerful dose of comfort, encouragement, and joy into just-right-sized readings. Minute 1: scripture to meditate on; Minute 2: a short devotional reading; Minute 3: a prayer to jump-start a conversation with God. This portable package makes a fabulous any-occasion gift for every woman.

My Review

I really like this Devotional ! It is short and just the right thing to start the day with if your a busy mom. It could also be read to daughters by the mom as a short devotion of God’s Love to share with them as they move into womanhood.  Being  a homeschool mom it is important to me to spend a few minutes with the Lord and this gave me a few minutes if I get up and children are already up. It brings peace and joy to my heart in a few short moments and that is what I needed lately to inspire me.

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I received a kindle digital copy of this book free for my unbiased review through NetGalley and have received no further compensation for doing so. The opinions expressed are my personal ones and not those of the publisher of this book.

So What if You’re a Failure !

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So you failed… Big Deal !

It’s not about Perfection, It’s About Progress !

We all fail daily and often times then not miserably at many things in life ! Is it the end of the world ?  No !  Can it change your life forever ? Yes , it can !  We all make less then good choices daily that effect the rest of our life in some cases.  They also effect those around us that we love. Sometime we can correct them and sometimes we can’t and just have to live with the consequences of our choices !

What is Excellence ?

Today: The quality of being outstanding or extremely good.

 Synonyms: distinction, quality , superiority, preeminence, supremacy, skill, talent, virtuosity, accomplishment, mastery.

Do you see how the definition has changed ?

 Archaic : An outstanding feature or quality.

From being one of something about you or a quality or character you posses to being something more you attain or do !

It definitely is something that set you apart from others !

How is it Measured ?

In most cases it is measured by how successful you are… or in the things you own or have attained in life. If one is successful it is often said  they are ” Living the Life “.  They may have a huge house,  drive a new car, have an RV, take vacations several times a year and have money to do all that.  And these are the things that make them happy in life !  The sad thing is that in reality happiness does not have anything to do with “stuff”.

 I have often said

 ” I would rather be poor and happy, then rich and have nothing of real value “

Placing value in things that don’t last really doesn’t bring about happiness. It is but a fleeting momentary pleasure.

Happiness is a mental or emotional state of well-being defined by positive or pleasant emotions ranging from contentment to intense joy.

It is in things that are lasting and not fading that we find contentment and great joy in life.

But godliness with contentment is great gain. I Timothy 6:6

Are you content ? How do you measure excellence ?

What in your life brings you happiness ?

Who Sets the Standard ?

The Government ?  The World ? The Church ?  You ? or God ?

The Government thinks that they can dictate a standard of what Excellent in standard for schooling children or adults.  Sad thing is they offer no standard of excellence in the welfare system, that allows many who could work to sit and not work and still maintain a standard that they say is the least one should live in …

The World seems to set a standard of what they think is Excellence or a standard for Success and what it means. By owning or doing certain things you can attain that standard of living and find real joy they say… I don’t buy into that !

The Church is so worldly and the world so churchy… you can hardly see the difference right ?   How do you tell the difference ?  The same folks you see in church are the same ones you see at the bar, smoking, drinking, being unfaithful to their spouses  and living to excess of riot, which  isn’t suppose to be the case in those claiming  to be ” Christians”

Everyone has their certain set standard of being a success or living the Excellent way..What is yours ?   Whats Mine ? Do they measure up to God’s ?

God’s measure for Excellence…sounds huge, daunting at times doesn’t it… but is it ?  Or do we just think that it entails a ton of rules and don’ts ?  Let’s look at this OK…

The word translated “excellent” in the New Testament comes from the Greek word diaphero, which literally means “to transport” or “to differ”  It has also been translated  as best, vital , the better things and  the highest and best. The Hebrew word translated “excel” is alah meaning ” to ascend.”   (taken from the book ” Becoming a woman of Excellence “) words used to encourage us ” to carry above the norm ” or “to be different” thru the qualities of virtue and goodness.  I like the way Cynthia puts that in this study…

Are we willing to go on to that which is considered above the normal standard of  Excellence ?

How we Fail at Becoming Women of Excellence !

In Ruth 3:11  Ruth is considered to be known as ” A Woman of Excellence”.

She is in my own words Bold, unafraid, fearless and she waited upon the Lord for what was her portion in life.

Are you those things ?  Do you walk without fear ? Are you Bold as you wait upon the Lord’s blessings in your life ?  or are you discontent and unhappy ?

You get up and you see yet another mess your teenagers left and your whole morning just goes wrong…. this was me… they left dirty dishes, it seems like no one cares if Mom has to get up to a sink full after going to bed.  So you go to your computer and set out to blog (its summertime) Your taking a break from homeschooling and your hubby is at work and you wish he was home helping you care for those kids !

You just don’t know where to start things are so messed up.  ( I’m walking it, except my husband is home 24/7 as he is disabled. Mental Illness isn’t easy.. I have a lot of sisters in the Lord who are walking it with me )  He isn’t happy that he can’t do all those things he use to do  ?  His memory is failing as he ages (he’s only 55 )  He doesn’t handle stress well at all and sorry but having teens means “stress” as they figure out who in the world they are…God knows even when they don’t, but they think your as old as dirt and how could you possibly know what they are going through or feeling right ?  You have a son who is 8 who just wants a brother to play with who can keep up with him….(sometimes in large families, Mom gets past the age of childbearing but still has young ones)

Wow I remember those days I longed for another baby, those days I miscarried so many times and now you full well know that “God gives you no more then you can bare”  and finally, you are at that content stage in life where “grandchildren are your most precious blessing !”

What ? Your family is so dysfunctional and you don’t do things together or your older kids live out of state and you hardly see them ?   Or you have some walking with the world and your not sure when they will turn to God in full surrender… but you pray, because praying is all you can do , because they won’t allow you into their life… perhaps they were from a previous marriage and are bitter about your choice to break free of a bondage of an alcoholic abusive ex spouse…  But they pick sides and man that really tares at your heart !

Whatever your stress may be have you found contentment in just knowing that God has it all under control ?   Oh yes he does !  He knows  your heartache, your fears , your tears and your limits….

I don’t care if your rug looks like you could start this years seedlings and grow your garden in it….He Is There !!!  (Tore the rugs out years ago)

I know….it seems like the evil one is trying so hard to ruin your life and your family…

I know your pain…

I have days i cry and days I laugh about it… but failure is some standard we set that we all seem to think holds us in bondage to being less then what God wants us to be…When in reality, God just wants your heart, even when times seem the hardest…

Join me Tomorrow , Lord willing to  talk about

 Wow, Your a Repeated Failure : How we Attain Excellence !

~ Linda Marie ~

Miracles from Heaven ~ Movie Review

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Anna Beam (Kylie Rogers) lives with a rare, incurable disorder that leaves her unable to digest food. Despite the dire diagnosis, devoted mom Christy (Jennifer Garner) relentlessly searches for a way to save her beloved daughter. Everything changes in an instant when Anna tells an amazing story of a visit to heaven after surviving a headlong tumble into a tree. Her family and doctors become even more baffled when the young girl begins to show signs of recovering from her fatal condition.

Wow, what a touching story !  As most of us we hate to see a child suffering with illness and this story just grabs your heart and takes you into the reality of it. Be sure to have a box of tissues handy ! Being the mom of a type 1 diabetic son,  I can sure related to what it feels like to be in the hospital waiting for Dr’s to tell you what is wrong with your child. It is heart wrenching to say the least.  I knew right where she was at when her daughter wanted to just have things be over with.  Each time that my son struggled with being diabetic and hated doing shots just tore my heart and made me ache for what the rest of his life would be like.  I am proud to say that my son is now 26 , A wonderful father and a great daddy !   It is not that often that we hear of someone being healed, but when it does happen it is a great and mighty testimony of God working in the lives of those that love Him.

Do you think your loved ones not being healed is due to your sin  ?  Has someone told you that someone in your lives has sinned and that this is the reason for no healing ?  I have to say that this movie will show you just the opposite and that God is a Loving and Awesome God !

This movie just may change your life !

You can order your copy Here.

Watch and Be Blessed

Linda Marie

We rented this movie from RedBox and I received no compensation for doing this review.

31 Days of femininity: Being feminine towards your children On The Modest Mom Blog.

Do you consider yourself feminine towards your children? This isn’t something I stop and think about very often. I strive to be feminine towards my husband and towards other people, but my children?

I considered the reasons why I would want to show femininity towards my children, and here are a few I came up with.
1. To model being a woman. Of course that seems obvious, but I mean a true lady. I want to give my boys a clear vision of what a woman content to be a female looks like, and model that as an example for my daughters.
For more on being feminine with your children use this link:
The Modest Mom Blog

31 Days of femininity: Being feminine towards your children.